What is your biggest dream?

Honestly, that can be such a hard question to answer.

And lately it is something that I have been asked a lot by different people in my life. I don’t know if it is because I am graduating college in a few months or if people really just want to know about those parts of my life.

Whatever the case may be it is pretty fun to think about.

I was posed with this question that other day, and I remember having to really dig deep into my mind to try and figure out the answer.

A few things came to mind:

I want to write a book.

I want to get married.

I want to live in the mountains at some point in my life.

I want to have a baby, or two, or four.

Among many other things…

Now I’m not saying this is the order I want said dreams to happen in, but these are just the ones that are at the top of my head as I’m living through my 20’s.

God knows the order and that is good enough for me.

I have had moments of pure excitement when thinking about some of the dreams I have for my future. There is a lot to look forward to in these next few years, and I can’t wait to see what God does with my little life.

I love sitting around with my friends and talking about everything that we are dreaming about. There is nothing better than being supported unconditionally in the things that I want to achieve one day.

God could be looking at this list and laughing, because maybe He has other plans. But I also like to think that God places these dreams in my heart so that I have something to chase after.

I have already started chasing after that first dream. I have my first book title created, and I even got it designed courtesy of my creative friend, Maura. But I haven’t started writing it. Because guess what gets in the way of chasing big dreams that seem scary?

A little thing called: fear.

Fear has come up in many different ways when it has come to me achieving this.

Am I the one to write this story?

Will God use it in someway?

Am I a good enough writer?

How does one even START this process?

So many things circulate through my head when I start thinking about doing stuff like this.

I know my dreams don’t scare God, so I don’t know why I am giving them the power to scare me. But I’m only human.

I know these things won’t go exactly as I plan, because when has that ever happened anyways?

I think during this time that I have spent in my little apartment, I have started using a lot more of my time productively. I have started taking the time to dream bigger, and figure out ways for me to achieve my dreams. I have talked to lots of people, read lots of books, and written lots of words.

Right now, a lot of what I want in my future, is still very much going to happen in my future. But I am still excited to wait with hopeful expectation to see what God is going to do.

-Taylor Kate