You know that little spinning wheel that shows up on your computer when you are making a purchase online? Or trying to get a really slow website to load?

That little spinning wheel means that whatever it is that you are doing is processing (or maybe that your computer is about to crash)

Right now my mind feels like that stupid little wheel. It’s processing a ton of new information, and pretty soon it might crash. I got a phone call yesterday from my doctor and he confirmed my PCOS diagnosis, and followed that with letting me know that I have to get an MRI to check out my pituitary gland.

Ouch. Really, dude? That’s actually the last thing I wanted to hear. I wanted the diagnosis to be followed with “and this is how we can fix it.” Not “and now you need an MRI before we can know for sure how to fix it.” Don’t get me wrong, I am thankful that they are checking everything out, but dang it’s frustrating.

If God is teaching me one thing right now it’s patience. I have to get through the next 4 days with this appointment looming over me. 4 days of waiting. 4 days of wondering. 4 days of trust, surrender, and prayer.

I know that God has me in His hands, and that none of this is a surprise to Him, but it is all a surprise to me.

I’m trusting that this MRI is going to help my doctors figure out what the next step is, but I am so confused why God keeps throwing me into the flames.

It’s one of those seasons where I feel like every time I catch my breath, I get thrown back under- and right now I am desperate for air.

I heard a quote recently and it states that no season is ever wasted. This season is absolutely crazy, but according to this quote, and probably to God too, this season will not be wasted.

This season of ongoing trials is going to teach me so much about who I am, and who God is. He is a faithful God, and He is a good God that will get me through this, one way or another.

“All suffering is within the pale of divine sovereignty. All suffering comes within the broader context of the sovereignty of God. ” -R.C Sproul

Taylor Kate