Hi, it’s me again. Two blog posts in one week..who am I? Not to mention the random blurb of words I posted on my Instagram a few days ago. God has just placed a lot on my heart this week, and I am just here to share it all. So have patience with me as I share more of my heart.

If you read the post I wrote on Tuesday, great. Thanks so much for reading. If you didn’t it’s okay, you didn’t miss much. Tuesday’s post was written out of a place of exhaustion and hurt. But today I’m back and still pretty exhausted but my heart is in a slightly different place.

My struggles haven’t completely up and left, but God did reveal Himself to me so much yesterday, through hard conversations, with good friends.

As I stated in Tuesday’s post, I struggle with feeling loved and wanted sometimes. Broken family relationships led me to feel like sometimes I’m unworthy of being loved, by not only my family but by God too. If I am not feeling loved by family, why would God want to love me? No matter who else rejected me, God. Never. Has. and not to spoil the ending but He. Never. Will.

That’s such a great truth to hold on to.

But yesterday God reminded me that I am indeed worthy of being loved. And I know this because God calls me beloved. And even though it’s hard for me- I have to agree with God than I am worth loving. Why would God create something that wasn’t worth love? That’s crazy. He would never do that.

In the Bible God calls us to love. He calls us to “love your neighbor as yourself.” This command is found so many times in the Bible, and it is an important one. In order to love your neighbor, or broken family, or friends, or roommates, you have to love yourself and love God!

God loved us first, and you can’t give love if you don’t have love.

I have slowly learned that the people who don’t love me in the ways I want to be loved, aren’t receiving God’s love for themselves. It’s hard to accept that, especially with my family, but in this season I believe that God is calling me to love my family where they are at, and accept that right now things are challenging with them, and I might not get the love my heart so deeply desires from them.

That is why God made community. God blessed me with a community of people where I live that love me well, and for that I am so thankful.