these words came to me a few nights ago when i was sitting on the couch creating a new playlist on my phone. i needed something to listen to that night because my mind was overflowing with anxious thoughts.

so i started pulling worship songs that were soft and could fill my ears with truth as i drifted off to sleep.

when i finished adding the songs i titled the playlist: find rest.

and then i started thinking about what those words mean to me in my everyday life. am i really finding rest right now? have i been seeking God in my everyday life still? i’m not entirely sure.

i have been very apathetic lately. and i’m not proud of that. it’s not how i want to feel but right now it’s happening.

but it’s the result of life looking a lot different right now because of this virus that is going around.

school is online. work is closed. and i haven’t been able to see my grandmother or friends in forever.

and i miss those things.

a whole lot.

and it has just caused me to pull back.

but i’m learning that is important to continue to look towards God, and find rest in Him.

even in the middle of times like this. even when i don’t really want to. even when i am fighting apathy.

i have been all too guilty lately of giving into fears and anxieties. because when we are surrounded by news and people talking about what is going on and the impact it will leave on the world, what else would i be doing?

oh yeah. that’s right.

praying.

trusting God.

taking those fears and anxieties to Him.

knowing that no matter what happens, my future is secured in His hands.

that’s what i should be doing.

seek Him wholeheartedly, and find rest in Him alone.

He can still be found.

-Taylor Kate